Google drive

Proving once again that the internet never forgets anything. I have discovered some old poetry I wrote on google drive.

Now public for the first time, I hope anyone who reads this vomits with disgust.

Eyes shut
Toward our center
Leaning in

Lips brush
Eyelids flutter
Nerves fire

Moistened
Skin brushes skin
Certainty

Confidence
Exploring sensation
Excitement

Breathing
Clock stops ticking
We love

23

What do you talk to your friends about?

She stood. 'Then it is settled' said she, 'I shall go to find the object that will remove desire'.

It was not settled, other's grumbled and griped.

'Why, what for?'.

'Is there a purpose or do you just want to do something?'

She sad down, pondering.

'If I do find it, I will stop wanting it. Then I will be at peace.'

'and then what?'

'I don't and can't know'

'more peace?'

'Doing something is better than doing nothing.'

The others made farting sounds that meant 'why?'

'Doing nothing is oft better than anything. At least when you do nothing, nobody gets hurt'

There was no need to say that was not her intent; accidents could happen and she knew outcomes rarely had any connection with intent.

'Where would you look?' a cautious voice inquired.

'I would start by asking the smartest person I know'

'You wouldn't understand what they told you, if they even answered your question'.

'Then I'll ask the most honest person I know'.

'Their answer would insult and upset you'.

'The most straightforward person then'.

'Good idea, if you know who that is'.

Her shoulder's sunk; she did not know, no one could.

'Maybe I'll use my intuition'.

'Maybe you already are'.

'Oh, okay'.

There was a long pause, while nobody said anything of consequence.

'It can't be too big, or someone would have found it already'.

'Or too small, significant, but not obvious'.

'If you know what it is, why are you looking for it?'

'I don't'

'Then how will you find it'

'I know what desire is!'

'You already have that'

'Then I'l look for the opposite'.

'You couldn't find the opposite of red, what makes this different?'

'I'm sure it was there, somewhere. I am just not good at color.'

'But you're good with desire? Don't answer that!'

'hrmmph'

'okay fine, something surrounded by a lack of desire?'

'something ugly?'

'something disgusting?'

'something boring?'

'No, all those things have opposites and provide contrast. It has to be something I feel nothing about'.

'Does it have to be something?'

'Yeah, we've got plenty of nothing'.

'It can't be that obvious can it?'

'Why not?'

Shangers and mash

Duolan park and modern art museum.

Beautiful, I showed up before the lazy artists got out of bed and started deconstructionism. So I spent my morning walking the park and doing a bit of taichi with some folks that thought I was weird but warmed immediately when they realized I knew the movements and spoke their language.

They told me that warm water was better for my health than chilled water, which could upset my stomach chi. Then we all smoked a cigarette and said goodbye.

There was a giant dragon made from plastic in the blue and white china style. I didn't care for it.

At the modern art museum, the deconstructionism was in full swing. The theme was water based ink, used in traditional chinese calligraphy.

I really liked the dead bird that lacked any anatomical correctness.

There was a really cool washout of a sunset with a sunset in the background. In the final piece the canvas is washed out to sea.

I bought a cheap bag with a kangaroo on it and had breakfast at a sushi place.

Baby Pack

Shut eyed amidst
The mind refolds unvoiced screams
Shut eyed amidst
The witching hour of moist dreams.

Atain illumination
Upset the nominally precise
Atain illumination
Reject formality in paradise.

Derpington and research

I have always taken the view that with care and concentration, it is possible to avoid injury.

The only time I have severely injured myself while cooking, I was busy having an arguement regarding determinism (oh hohoho very funny) and turned to rebut a point whilst removing a chunk of my thumb.

In the spurting blood I saw a mistake, allowing myself to be distracted, attempting to be of two minds when one would suffice.

Now I sit before a database, reading thousands of cases of people injuring themselves doing things that I do daily, weekly, monthly or yearly, along with other things it is unlikely I will ever do.

But why? What is the underlying reason? Popular opinion in the injury prevention community is that all injuries are preventable. Less popular but certainly present is the opinion that mitigation and control measures can reduce severity and incidence, but that a base rate of injury must always occur regardless of due care.

The most disturbing possibility to me is that injuries are never accidents, but rather subconscious actions undertaken in reaction to mental or physical stress.

Ennui, ennui, ennui, must be funny

When days like this, the world is cold
Memory overtakes me; I walk through life
Drifting through nostalgia, rationale regret reaches
Where warm emotion cannot radiate
Sinking into the depths, exploring dispassionately.

Eugenics

I have recently been drunkenly expounding the supposed virtues of eugenics. While many of my literate friends may read this as bluster or write it off as cynicism or misanthropy, I have a point, I think. Let the following make up your mind as it may well

Eugenics is not bad, far from it, it is by definition good. Words do not reliably retain the meaning of their definitions. Perhaps a closer look is in order.

Lets clear the air first. Most people hear eugenics and don't think 'like eukaryotes only different'. They think of human beings being locked up en mass for no sane reason. Emaciated faces and general despair. It is a pretty bad scene and it would be uncharacteristicly classless of me to attempt levity when describing it.

So maybe a few definitions are in order.

Sterilization: Rendering an organism incapible of reproduction. Sterile, clean, happy.

Fixing: When you sterilize a broken pet. Now it is fixed and so much happier that its sex hormones are in a jumble.

Ethnic cleansing: Mass sterilization of an ethnic group. Keep in mind that sometimes sterilization takes the form of murder.

So the whole, clean and fixed thing has a bit of negative connotation to it and the language certainly seems to be suggesting a certain fetish for distinction, seperation and cleanliness. We'll talk about why some people dislike contraception another time though. For now I would like to examine some byproducts of eugenics.

Humans have created selective breeding programs since they realized how the whole thing worked (in plants and animals). Probably the most popular term for the results of long term human eugenics programs would be 'domesticated'.

Inbreeding wolves to get dogs, pigs to get faster growing pigs, cattle to get constantly lactating bovine , avians to get constantly menstrating chicks (with a period that is delicious with pig).

A few other achievements. Wheat, corn, irish resistant potato, beans, chickpeas, bananas, Staphylococcus aureus. I think you get the idea.

Most if not all of these interesting genetic experiments were carried out with fixing and sterilization.

The whole thing makes me a mite bit uncomfortable. And not without good cause.

So how does one do this eugenics thing? Well simple. Decide on an idea of 'good' (your miliage will vary), then attempt to impose that idea on a living organism via direct and indirect modification of its DNA. Et voila! Eugenics.

Problems arise when attempting to define good. I won't bother addressing that pile of stupidity here, suffice to say that if one pretends good does not exist, one sees all the good that does.

So eugenics, certainly a mutated and differentially defined term, much maligned and not without fair judgement.

But what possible benefits or future medical advances, breeding rights and patented DNA do we have to look forward to in the future? I will discuss that another time.

BOWEL HATRED (I was going to call it silence)

Walk and sit
And then walk more
And sit and walk
Then wait and hear
That there
Is simply
No one
There.