Do you ever have any bizarre thoughts?
Would you ever tell your doctor you did?
Before I left for
I was once told by a friend that she had assumed all women were lesbians until she learnt that she was an aberration.
If you can picture how alone and exposed she must have felt having lived under the certain safety that everyone was thinking and desiring the same things as her, then you have some idea of how I felt.
The way everything is phrased so far, it makes it seem like I was a 18 year old just realising I was gay. This isn't the case.
I was under the apparently mistaken impression that everyone fantasised about violently killing people that displeased them.
How long had I been sleeping?
Isaac wrote this
Indeed. I remember seeing the popular anti-suicide catchphrase at school: "It's ok to ask for help!".
ReplyDeleteI wish that were true. I daresay most of us harbour thoughts that could never be trusted to others for fear of the reaction, the alienation, the observation.
I myself have sat through countless conversations with people I like and love, imagining myself removing one of their eyes with a fork. And I have no idea why.
Would it be better if we denied these thoughts? Pretended we were 'normal'? What is strength but facing temptation and refusing it? And what is cowardice but to flee from reality?
At least you woke up though. I suspect few of us ever even asked.